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Your past does not define you but your decisions do.

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When you think about the past I imagine you think about all the great memories/experiences you shared with your loved ones, you might have thoughts on how easy things used to be. You lived in a world where everything seemed to be filled with laughter and happiness. Oblivious about what was to come as you transitioned from adolescence to adulthood. Now as an adult everything you believed about your past/upbringing you now realise was not as glamorous as you thought it was, behind that smile you may have felt abandoned/neglected, you may have seen your parents struggle wondering how they were going to take care of you and your siblings this week, or you may have been exposed to a form of abuse which till this day you are yet to tell anyone because you fear that if you spoke out your perpetrators might punish you. These experiences are enough to make anyone feel  anxious because they don't know what life is going to throw at them next, insecure because they feel like they are not good

The heart speaks

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Again Jesus called the crowd to him and said,  “Listen to me, everyone, and understand this.   Nothing outside a person can defile them by going into them. Rather, it is what comes out of a person that defiles them.  After he had left the crowd and entered the house, his disciples asked him about this parable.  “Are you so dull?” he asked.  “Don’t you see that nothing that enters a person from the outside can defile them?  For it doesn’t go into their heart but into their stomach, and then out of the body.” (In saying this, Jesus declared all foods clean.)   He went on:  “What comes out of a person is what defiles them.   For it is from within, out of a person’s heart, that evil thoughts come—sexual immorality, theft, murder,   adultery, greed, malice, deceit, lewdness, envy, slander, arrogance and folly.   All these evils come from inside and defile a person.” (Mark 7: 14-23) ( Bible.com, n.d.). To summarise this verse the first thing that comes to mind is that our desires determine t

Tell me who I am

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  I came up with the title "tell me who I am" because I have spent the last couple of months trying to figure exactly who I am. Well, news flash, the fact is that we are constantly figuring out who we are and as we journey through life we are constantly changing. For many years my identity was made up of the environment I grew up in,  my home environment shaped me as well as everything I was exposed to outside of my home. Growing up in South London Peckham had a significant impact in the way I viewed the world, on one hand it made me resilient and on the other hand it made me doubt myself. Not in my ability but in how other people viewed me. Secondly, grewing up in a single parent home where there was love but no affection also impacted me. Rather than learning to accepting who I was it lead me to seek validation from others whether this was amongst my peers, relationships or in my football career. If I wasn't going to get love from home subconsciously I believed  I'l